March 27, 2013

Life is changing...

Life changes all the time, but sometimes we notice more than others. There are small, light changes that happen in the every day things, as you go, and one day you realize that that cereal that you used to love and eat all the time doesn't fancy you anymore and you haven't had it in a while... or that your favorite dress, the one that you used all the time, has been hanging in your closet for 6 months without use. There is small changes that we do and have, like getting closer with a new friend or growing apart another.

And there is big, huge, complicated and life-changing changes that also happen. Sometimes planned, sometimes out of the blue. Sometimes you look forward to them, sometimes you try to avoid them like the plague.

Our life is changing... we are getting closer and closer to our final day in our loved little city in the mid-west. We are preparing to go back to Mexico and join our families there.
There is a really bittersweet taste to all of this. We are working on all the logistics of a move, more if you think that it's a move to another country. We've decided not to take our furniture and large belongings with us. We are taking "the essentials" that are still a lot of things... lots of clothes to pack, lots of yarns and baking ware to take with us. Of course my wonderful Kitchen Aid will come with us.
That means we have to sell, give away, donate, dispose, etc of a large number of things... we practically have a complete apartment full of things and comodities to live. We have a lot more than we realize.

We are trying to juggle the last few days here, with work for MG and the shop for me... visiting and farewells with good friends, last parties and walk around town. All added to the packing and all the mentioned above that needs to happen before we leave.

I'm looking forward to go to Mex, I cannot wait to see my mom and dad, my uncle and aunts and my grandma! I'm sad to leave here, but I'm looking forward to come back to visit and I have a couple of hope trips for the summer.

I have to pack some more,
See you soon!

March 14, 2013

Documenting things...

Life keeps going and going... every day I write wonderful blog posts in my head about all the exciting, and not so exciting, things that happen in our lifes, but very sadly they just stay in my head.
I've been terrible about documenting our life lately. I should say almost terrible because I have taken pictures and saved the memorabilia that goes with them, but I've just been bad about recording and documenting them somewhere:: in my scrap albums, the blog, my emails to Mex, my project life... etc.

I think I feel that once I've missed an important day, an event, sometime when something worth to be recorded, happened; I can't just skip it and keep going with the documenting of the other things/days, and I have to wait until I get that first day down. Which becomes a problem because I keep living exciting things that I want to document and share -or not, maybe just for me- but then I just get paralized and feel overwhelmed at the idea of all the things I need to put down.
And then they either get lost, not scraped, not put together somewhere, not blogged... or I just make a bad, poor and short recap of all that happened in that time.

I figure that mostly I'm doing this for myself. Because I like to do it. Because I like to have a record and document of my life and the amazing things and people in it. I don't mind sharing it at all. I love when people sees what I write, or my albums with my photos and my stories... I love when they comment about it or have fun looking thru my story. But I realize now that I don't do it for them. I don't do it for someone specifically. I've always dreamed about having this records and stories of my life so my kids can see what I was like, how things where around me, who where who, what, when and why of a lot of things, and get an escence of who I am today (whenever today might be).
If my kids, or someone else, have a good time looking thru what I save, record and document... it'll be great! I'll be thankful they do and I hope they have a good time. But in the end, I'm doing it for me. Just for the pleasure of doing it. Just because I like it and I enjoy it.
And if I have a trip or a great day that I want to document and put down to enjoy it again later... I will. And I won't care if what I have to say about it is a whole book or just two lines. I won't care to "deliver" something in a timely manner. I won't stress myself over not having cool photos or the right saying for each of them. I won't care if I have a good day that is not so good and I feel like writing that I'm sad or upset, because those things also happen in life.
I'll let go of the guilt of not recording a special day. If I have time to go back to it later, it'll be great, my story will be more complete; but if I don't have time and it gets buried under other days... I won't feel guilty to skip it and continue with the other events. I might go back to it because I'd like to have it. But in the end, the whole point of this is for me to be happy and enjoy it and not to stress about it. And anyways, whatever gets down will be a part of my story. Having something down is more than a lot of people have in their whole lifes.
This is for me!
I don't have to make my life interesting for others, it is more than interesting to me!

Happy Thursday and see you soon!